Something I am NOT good at.....

I think most of my adult years, I've been the type of person that doesn't like to be told how to do something, I don't really want advice unless I specifically ask for it, I don't like to answer to others for what I choose to do and I have the mentality of "If you want it done right, do it yourself."  Another big personality quirk of mine is that I do NOT like to wait on others. I have patience, but I do NOT have patience when I'm waiting on others so that I can move forward with something. That being said, the last handful of months have been so ridiculously stressful for me simply because I'm waiting on one person....my DCFS rep!!  People that have never worked with DCFS have absolutely no clue what a frustrating mess they are. I have been working on my preschool idea since last summer....working, planning, researching and the list goes on. I submitted all of my paperwork to them (and believe me when I saw it was a THICK packet!) towards the end of last year and waited....and waited...and waited to hear from them. I didn't want to call and be an annoyance because the last thing you want to do is be on their bad side, but I finally did and guess what?  They reassigned all the reps and my new one had to "search" for my file and finally found it saying that my previous rep just sort of set it off to the side and apparently forgot about it.  Awesome.  So she needed a few more things from me which I took care of within that week. More time passed, I wasn't hearing from her so I contacted her again and she said background checks all came back fine so now she was just waiting on my references to get their paperwork back to her and then she'd be able to schedule my home visit (which is the last step before licensing). I made sure she knew that I was really hoping to have open enrollment in mid-March - around the same time as the other two preschools in the area.  Well, I waited and waited and waited and finally contacted her AGAIN on Leap Day checking to see if maybe she needed me to give my references a swift kick in the butt to get their paperwork back to her....and guess what??  She forgot to even mail the paperwork to them!!!!  Are you kidding me?!  Can anything else happen to slow down this process any more?? I feel SO much guilt - every single day - for the fact that financially things are a struggle for us right now. I know it was my decision to totally switch my career path and I know it's never easy for anybody to do such a thing and I don't want to feel bad for following my dreams, but to have to wait on this one person to do their job so that I can move forward has only made things THAT much more difficult because it's completely out of my hands.  On a positive note, I have not felt rushed AT ALL to get the school room ready! I have lots of items crossed off of my to-do list (although I still seem to add to it daily).  My waiting list keeps growing which is the BEST (it just grew a little longer today in fact!) so that keeps me motivated.  Ok - so actually the idea, in general, of what I'm doing keeps me motivated because I LOVE IT!!  I LOVE where my life is headed!!  I just have to work through these bumps in the road....I have gobs and gobs of support and Travis assures me every time I start to apologize for our sudden struggles that he supports me 110% and that he has never once put blame on me for things.  Can't ask for anything better than that!